Like losing your child in the grocery store....
I have lost my dad.
Wandering past the isles hoping they'll pass by at the other end and that the beating of your heart will rest once again.
Faces rush past you that do not know you,
that would not call your name.
calling to them in the silences of your brain.
I search for dad.
Calling to him before I fall asleep.
Hoping he will hear me.
my words echo in the darkness.
In the far recesses of my heart.
I long for him.
To hear him call to me.
For him to remember me.
To have him visit me just one more time.
my stomach's torn with longing for his voice,
to see him laugh
and to have him smile at me.
to hold him while he tells me to not be sad.
I wait for dad.
I wait for him to call.
Reaching to find his spirit.
I mourn his passing.
I sit in my bed, soaked with tears.
Endlessly......I will love you dad.