Thursday, November 18, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
....I am so looking forward to the newness of life emerging out here where I live.
I have given up the nail shop and will move forward in my efforts to be creative,
and to write.
I cannot wait to discover the new successes which await me.
A great sifting has occured in my surroundings.
sudden shift of fall.
This year it happened again.
What almost appeared to be a day of summer,
then a day of yellow branches,
to now ,
their death upon the ground ....
and we wait the blanket of Winter.
My life shifts as well..
.from being a popular small town business icon..
to being back at home,
cleaning house and crafting.
I will begin again.
Wake up each morning to write something.
Create life where things have fallen dead,
re-wake the words within me that desire to be printed.
Set a new schedule,
and a new boundary.....
and watch for my re-emergence like Springtime.
Success will blossom more full than previously thought!
I will write and create,
and move forward with it....
and create for me a new life,
a new name, a new success,
and a new income!
I will become what I was intended to be all along!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
within it's memory banks.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
That is now the question
The information seminar held our attention for about 3 hours.
Good exposure to what it's all about.
We left with an armload of paperwork and information from various agencies.
We also left with heavy hearts filled with the unknown.
It will cost us nearly $14,000 for a sibling pair.
Unless a miracle happens,
.... we will not be adopting.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Funny now, how it seems when with my sister...
It's like we've never been together.
She's always been quick to shush me,
or carry on with her life while I'm talking...
I don't ever demand her attention,
but she kindly informs me of how her ignoring me is proper ettiquette
when she's made the initial call.
If I'd had called her , it would be different, she says.....
yet , it never is.
"Jane, shouldn't you call her back?"
"No, she'll be busy anyway with, now, two babies to tend to. She's always busy."
I really struggle with all this baby stuff....
...and sister stuff.
Everyone in my world has either 3-5 children or little ones less than 3.
No one has a 13-14 yr old.
"Jane, are you ever going to have more babies?"
I chuckled at that one. Thinking I was already ahead of the game...
but sometimes feeling like I dont fit in.
Our lives don't compare.
Like in school when we played sports and nobody passed me the ball,
or picked me for their team.
For the first time I get to play the role of the birdie in badminton, being tossed around and beat sensless, on what I should do.
I remember the days when I had young ones, and no one was interested in our company.
Pam, Tracy, Andrea, they had all left, then Marc and his family.
...and what seems now, to be my sister.
"Jane your sister called to see if you'd be in town overnight after your event on Saturday?"
"No, I have to go back home, why?" I asked the librarians.
"Well, she will be in town to show her baby to her friends and thought if you were to stay you could see the new baby too."
"Oh", I said.
She'll make a trip to see her friends but not her sister.
I wasn't all that interested anyway....
She just calls to tell me dumb stuff of how she succeeded her second pregnancy with not a stretchmark to show for it.
I have non-baby things to do.
And mine aren't stretch marks...
They're Tiger Bites...
Because they're that big, and their everywhere!!!
Oh how I need my other sisters... and a big bottle of Khaluha.