It's interesting.. How I've progressed all these years. It's like i've almost become magic. I speak things and within days of the spoken form of it, it comes to pass. It's as if I was King Midas, and everything I touch turns to gold.
For years I went to church and prayed my brains out...Yes, I saw many prayers answered but most of them were after much tears soiling my pillow, or me yelling into my washing machine as it filled with water.
As time passes, I see it in a different way. How I spent years begging for the things I wanted or the things I needed, and yet they were always there for me, I did not have to beg, I only had to speak and see it in my nearest future.As much as religion taught me of the deep crevass between me and the almighty God, my doubt and fear created the crevass between me and all that I desired.
Lately, my discoveries into faith have shown me that i do not have to beg God or become perfect like him...I only have to know that I am of him, a great source of power and if it all be true, that I am created in his image, thus equal in creative power, "Almighty-ness", if I dare, but all too often I have seen it come to pass in my life.
I am an extension of the source, or God, as many refer to it, he spoke and created and said it was all good, and now, I do the same. I have seen it in material things, money amounts, and people and circumstances coming to me when needed.
I asked for $140,000 to pay off my mortgage and my reno loan, and within a few months it came with the sale of my condo, as well as a surplus to pay off other things. a surplus of $97,000 to be exact, I asked for a double portion once, to set aside some debt ayment and some Money for my daughter's education, and I was given $10,000 after my grandmother died and thenmy uncle handed me a second amount of the same to put away for my daughter.
I asked for a car, free of charge, low mileage and well maintained, and I got it, as well a holiday trailer of 24 ft , skinny bunks, and corner master bedroom. and it came to us in a matter of days. Currently, I drive white Ford escort. My husband recommended that I look into purchasing a 4x4 for the winter roads out here. When he called the dealership to talk to whom we had purchased from before, he asked them to get back to us about any Ford escapes on the lot. As My husband hung up, I said, "I hope they have a white one!" 10 minutes later the dealer called back and asked, "Does your wife like white?"
My life never ceases to amaze me, after tearing out parts of our basement I said to my husband how we should get a fooseball table to fill some empty space... he blew it off, but i continued to look in catalogues and flyers and show them to him... and still he blew it off. Well, come christmas, my mother walked in the door with a family gift.....a fooseball table.
I am extremely greatful for the things I have learned, and aquired, and experienced. To tell a story like no other, to have complete strangers call you blessed or charmed, or lucky or simply having a 4-leaf clover up my ass. It's nice to be here. and to watch it all happen nearly daily. In the last week, I had been learning to just tell myself that money comes in as easy as the air I breathe, and just shortly afterward, I recieved a cheque for $157 as well as notification fromt he gov't that they reassessed my tax return from last year and owed me a whopping total of $503.
It works, I cannot deny it. A remarkable and power turn of events in my life since this discovery.
I find it hard to go home, or back to church, because I have seen the goodness of God and no longer beleive the despairities and begging through prayer that they teach you.
We are simply made in the image of God, he says to declare a thing and it shall be so, to speak and then beleive knowing that it , too shall come to pass, to ask, beleive and recieve...It's that simple folks, but you've made it into something that it isn't.... and thus you experience the lacklustre-ness of Religion, you do not walk the walk of faith or belief or trust. You beg, and you cry praying, and you blame others for how they have hurt you....
there is none of that where I walk now.... none.i speak it, and it comes to pass, my feelings are my own and no one can take them or effect them, my experiences are my own also...and no one can take them....
and this world is filled with a vastness or generosity, of fullfillment, of prosperity, no one can take what you have desired from you. Speak what you dream of and watch it come to you swiftly. do not let others, distract you, or persuade you otherwise. It is all there for you! All of ti. everything you have ever dreamed of,
No You are not materialistic, no you are not greedy, no you are not disillusioned....Life is supposed to be good for you....But you need to know that you are the only thing that holds yourself apart from it.
Your emotions are the key. if you stay in hurt, or confusion, anger, or defeat, you cannot have those things which you desire....You simply cannot... those emotions create the crevass that separates you from all you were intended to be, do or have.
Let go, Move forward , toward your dreams, toward happiness, towards fullfilment of all of it. as soon as tomorrow your entire life could change.!!