It's been really hard today.
I've lived here for almost 4 years...and still, there's no one.
No one to have coffee with,
no one to be my friend.
My daughter is being a teenage bitch and lately my husband can't even say anything nice to me.
I am so sad.... and disappointed.
I wish my dad never left.
I wish I was 20 again and I could start over.
I wish i could just cause all the things i dream about to come now.
I wish I was more than I am...
I wish I meant more to people.
I wish I had purpose...
I wish there was more to this life....
4 years out in the country......and no connections.
What's wrong with me?
How much longer?